The sob story

After months of getting to terms with the news, it’s now easier for me to say yes I failed an in depth client study/ process report. I have grappled whether I should share that here but what’s the sense in only sharing the superficial difficulties of the course and not the real challenges faced by me on the course. After all the reason I started this blog is to offer those considering this field a better idea of it when back then I couldn’t find qualitative information.

On reflection, it was a huge shock considering that the assignment was the last piece of work for the year and I thought I had improved from when I first started on this course. To make things worse, it was just by 2%! Well I know a fail is a fail but 2%! Sigh…

So many feelings flushed through me the past 1 and half months; justifications, excuses, self defeat, increased motivation, challenged, questioning, blaming, jealousy, unfairness, apprehension, uncertainty, hope, supported, confusion… Some have resolved itself, some consolidated itself.

Perhaps the best way to start is to consider and clarify what is an in depth client study/process report. It is essentially an assessment and psychological formulation of the client’s presenting issues. The second part of the assignment then requires a transcript of a session with the therapist’s thought process and reasons for intervention. Finally, what you have learnt from the client as well as the placement. So as you can see, the first part requires a professional examination and evaluation of the client’s mental health and the second and final part considers the effect the client and the therapeutic relationship have on the therapist. Having said that, the piece of work relies heavily on the subjective opinion of the psychologist and is in no way claiming the absolute truth to the client’s issues. Another person might come along and come up with a different formulation based on their impression of the client.

Hm, I wish I had such a clear idea of it then. Takes a fail to really push me huh.

So what did I do wrong then? – to be continued.


One way to increase reflectivity— Friends

While doing some net surfing, I came across this research article which showed that friends may know more about us than we do ourselves! How is that even possible? What’s even more striking is that parents are the least reliable in terms of predicting their child’s traits as they tend to perceive them as being exceptional.

Surely, I know what my fears and hopes are better than anyone else. Well, actually, that is true. What friends are shown to know better are observable characteristics such as creativity, intelligence and/or rudeness. This is the case as we might be clouded in our self perception influenced by our unconscious desires. So perhaps, there is a strong case to integrate comments friends make in good will to aid our pursue of self development.

Being reflective is a complex process which requires us to combine information from our past, present as well as aspirations and ambitions to arrive at a full picture of ourselves. To be honest, it is relatively impossible to gain a full picture of ourselves with the constant change in surrounding people and environment. Furthermore, it is difficult for us think beyond what we thought we were. However, have you ever thought why we’re able to offer advice to others much easier than we can to ourselves? Faced with all sorts of changes and situations, sometimes we are lost in the moment unable to process our thoughts and emotions. In these situations, perhaps it is wise to seek our friends’ consultation rather be caught in a delusion that we are targeting the right areas.

Below is the full link to the article.

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