Well, the second year of University has started, and thinking about it – a whole month has passed already!! Time definitely flies when there are things to be done! Good thing is that the complexity of this academic year seems manageable (so far). However, what has been on my mind lately is that my schedule is so chaotic and trying to piece things together takes so much time and energy out of me. Here is how my situation is currently – I have 2 counselling placements, each is relatively far from where I live; my lectures this year are only once a week, but we have those 4-5 additional intensive blocks of training where we need to attend uni every day for a week or so. This means traveling back and forth to Glasgow and rescheduling everything else that has been planned for the week – like clients’ appointments, supervision,personal therapy…life…and finding time to fit them all in.
I think i have been handling things well for the past month, but what seems to be the problems now is that i need to find another placement. This should be within an NHS organization, like a GP surgery or clinical department where I could exercise CBT (finding one will be a tough job and i’m dreading commencing the search). I already started using the approach with a client, who requested it in one of my established placements. Using Person-centred approach and then CBT..with CBT still being very fresh for me…well, to be honest things are starting to feel a bit messy. Imagine using person-centered approach for a day with clients and then the last client is my CBT client. I think the impact CBT has had on my practice already is that I’ve become more directive with my person-centred clients, my patience has changed!!!..I need to find the balance somewhere in between I suppose. I find it much easier being directive, following forms, giving out home-task etc., thinking logically instead of exploring my clients’ problems in depth…arrggg. I might explore that in another post. My tutors recommend that we don`t try to integrate things yet, until we feel comfortable with each approach on it’s own. I’m kind of wondering whether this makes sense to me..as the approaches are so different from each other. Anyways, this is my struggle at the moment.. still very fresh so I suppose I need some time to find myself and see what sits with me at this stage.
I’ve been reading a lot of research lately, I kind of like it.. (soon coming up is an intense quantitative research block which may change my positive attitude towards it though). I have also been offered to publish my lit. review in one of the Counselling Psychology journals. I’m pretty pleased with that and now have to work on preparing that review, putting it in a more presentable shape I suppose.I’m impressed how M. managed to keep this blog running last year, while so many things need to be done..like assignments, log books etc.(I didn’t mention those above but lets put it this way – the D.Psych course just doesn’t leave a gap for you to breath).